Strangely i've more or less gotten over the fact that my orange fuzzy's gone. Still, i'm hoping someone turns it in. After the police report, customer service reports and all. It sucks having to wait a whole week for your new/old card(s) to come in.

Worst thing is i cant even be sure what else is inside. Besides money and cards. Argh. Thankfully, Alexi's card that i thought i left inside was actually in another holder. And thankfully, i just transferred most cards to my new card holder. Still, it sucks losing stuff. Especially whenever i recall thing i wanted to get. Oh well.

Anyway, dinner out with Eugene was good as usual. I miss seeing him around strange as we can be, he's always so awfully nice and sweet to me. And i feel bad because now with my Sandman collection completed, i'll need to explicitly state something that i want for him to pick up.


I wonder how's the rest from school doing. Have not heard much from the others and all. Save for David recently. Even TszePing's barely around lately. Wenxin, Jehanne are you still aliveeeeeeeee ? And then there's always my MIA Amantha and Kaelyn.


And i'm wondering much about the end of year gathering with the DM people. I remember someone stating that a lot's about a power play and i remembered Edwin. Maybe things were banally true even back then, it's been ages since i saw him with us. I dont suppose i even recall him being there last year. Then there's Benji, whom i have not heard from in a long while. Ever since his BMT ended and my school started. It's so strange whenever i'm with Benji. So comforting yet so suffocating. It's strange, but i guess i owe a lot to his presence. I guess, sometimes, it feels good when someone verbally acknowledges your worth in their lives. Eugenia's another funny case. How long has it been since i've seen her ? And the other clique. Haha. It was a strangely dazzling game.


And there's always the 5 of you. That i want to trust that i can believe in and count on at all times. Looking back, it's been quite a while. Strangely, i've been counting, 5, 7, 11. Because knowing you guys is still so surreal. Daniel, you have yet to introduce her. It's been almost a whole year now. Lyon, where's my goldfish ? I still want that mustard gas crowntail though. And one of my oldest girlfriend.

I still wonder sometimes, where Terrence is now. Who is he, what's he like, how he looks now. Things i will perhaps never get an answer to. Leaving me with that kindness so painfully etched into me. I still wonder, why despite how close we were, there was never a photo of us together. Despite the traces i found of him among my stuff back then. Things that were distinctly his yet mine. Yet perhaps we were all too young to realise how the cherry blossom falls.


Handful of love, so much more than you know.